This life is full of our flesh fighting against the kingdom mindset.
With that in mind, i have struggled a lot with that lately. Before i get into all the details, a lot of these feelings come up about a week ago. When i was at home for my best friend’s wedding.
So when i got home i got to enjoy all the things, i feel like people take for granted. The simple fact of when you take a poop, you can throw the toilet paper into the toilet,(the first time i did that at home it felt like a sin):), the fact that when you go to bed you can lay in bed,and not wonder if there’s going to be a lizard,cockroach,or some crazy mosquitoes, to interrupt your night. At home i had my owe bathroom, and didn’t have to share it with 10 other guys, and another plus was that it was freshly cleaned by my amazing mom,(before i got home:). I got to drive my owe Jeep, witch just feels pretty good after going 5 months without driving. Also at the base, we have a schedule (most of the time), but sometimes i have no idea what we’re doing, until we are doing,(so being at home and having my owe schedule was really enjoyable for me) Last but not least, is the fact that, here in Costa Rica, i live in a community that involves 24 other people.( which for the people who don’t know me, I don’t enjoy all the time).
So in short i really enjoyed my time at home. Which aside of everything i write about already, with a really good time with friends,family, and marrying off my best friend.
But then struggles hit me hard when I get back to Costa and realize that I have another month, of where i need to push into things that deep down i really don’t want to.( after experiencing life at home, and being honest, not missing to much of the race).
And on top of that, we have this thing every other Wednesday night, where one of our groups picks a unreach people group, and talks about where they live and their culture. So with week it is my group turn, so when i was researching for my part, the Lord was continually asking me, Would i be willing to leave my comfort at home, if i was called to go and share The Good News with them.
So with that I’ll like to leave the challenge with you. Are You Letting The Comfortable Things, get in the way of walking in obedience, to what the Father wants for us.
Oh Jason….. I’m so proud of you, it takes a strong young man to continue to press on and make plans for your future outside of your comfort zone even when it’s not easy and you have a ton of people offering you a job at home. Take your candle, go light the world, I will be your biggest cheerleader all the way….. from the one who cleaned your room??
jason, i’m so thankful you don’t shy away from wrestling with God, seeking His voice, and being willing to give up your comforts for His glory!
Jason I so appreciate your willingness to share what’s happening in the depth of your heart. God continues to show you His love. So good to see you not settling for but seeking after the heart of the Father.